Why can’t I have a dream(s)?

DREAM. Everybody, all of us, deserve to have our own dream. Dream brings us to a better life, better motivation, higher achievement, and a reason to live.

I know a guy who has been dreaming about a new car, or a mother’s dream about her kids’ future. Me? My dream are straight As (A-A-A-A-A-A-A, ho-ho) for all of my subjects, another level of education after this undergraduate program stuff, etc. What? Sounds too obsessed? I don’t think so. That’s a GOAL.

This word (DREAM) reminds me of the time when I was having a little chitchat with my good friend. I told her about my goal (increase of GPA), what I’m gonna do to reach the goal (join the summer class next year), and what I’ve been thinking and hoping about my future. I remember she said to look at what I’ve done, what I’ve had, why can’t I give thanks and be grateful for my life now without asking too much about this and that, why I always compare my life with people who have a better one?

Hello, miss? Ha-ha. I laughed and thought that the conversation was over. That time I knew I shared my goals with “not-right” person who never has a real dream to catch a better life. So what if I want to reach my goal? So what if I have a bigger dream than anybody’s?

Bigger dream and goal can’t be correlated by ungratefulness and discontent. Bigger dream and goal describe a passion and energy of continuing life. Every people have a different perspective of success. People with wide scale of success will have more motivation to get better and persevere. They usually will have a greater dream.

When I have a better future in my head, I also have a better action to reach it (FYI, I’m not a kind of NATO person, ha-ha).

I kept repeating the question:
Why can’t I have a dream?
So what if I want to reach my goal?
So what if I have a bigger dream than anybody’s?
And got no answer for them, so why I have to stop dreaming? Every creation allows to dream, every human have to dream, and every man who has been dreaming of a better life are supposed to dream.

Don’t stop dreaming and dreaming because a man who has a dream deserve for a GREATER EVERYTHING.

“The future is belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.”
–Eleanor Roosevelt-

What you, miss have-no-dream? Don’t like my post? Ha-ha.

goodbye to the best tranqulizer i ever had

I think, sometimes when people get older, the (likely) prefer a composure and calmness to a boisterousness. I'm not that old but I always love tranquility as they do. I always prefer sitting, reading, writing, or chatting on the corner of Starbucks to go out somewhere crowded. I love to stay at home more than dancing all night long. Maybe sometimes it called nerdy-jerky-out-of-date, but truly, in fact, I think it more fun :)

This thought started one day, the day i really curious with the next chapter of the book I'm reading and about to continue it, the PLN sadistically & cruelly "KILL" the electricity off because they still repairing the exploded gardu listrik (according to schedule, they will do that once per 4 days). I'm trying (really hard) to survive in the middle of darkness, no air-con, no internet connection, no light, no telly, nothing at all. Sadly, there's nothing to do without them. Until my mom gave me candles and asked me to light them up. I remember the time when the five lumen(s) transformed my dark-blacky room to a comfort space and made a great coziness. VOILA! This and that looked really nice and warm, including the book. I got my flashlight and read under it after opened the window widely, let the wind flow through my face (haha). Sonic and Ariel were sleeping like the fishes did (maybe, LOL). That was really calm and silent. As silent as when Ariel sneaks out to the garbage dump (no one can do that silence perfectly). As silent as my broken music box. As silent as my grandma when she's watching Korean drama.

But that will never happen again for the rest of my life. When I knew it, my heart was broken. Sadly miserably BROKEN, as a broken heart girl when she knows the boyfriend cheating on her.
Guess what?! My dad bought a not-important-at-all-genset-whatever-things to back up the electricity when the PLN put them out. It's only once per four days and everybody can't bear with it. Even if I extinct the lamps and light the candles up, that is never be the same as the PLN do.

Bye-bye Mr. Tranqulizer. I'm gonna miss u a lot.

bonus: the look of my bathroom when the coziness still around us :) i'm lovin it.

Looks great, doesn't it?

to beautiful woman i know

In this photo: AMA
Captured by: jessica grace


this is called THE BEAUTY OF AGE
picture: AMA, the most powerful woman whose attractive lips to smile and kiss, beautiful eyes to seek out the good in people, strong hand to give us a massage, and extra line on her face that shows she will never stop loving us. love u granny :)

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